i don't know.
i feel very lonely at this moment.
i feel like crying.
this is the saddest feeling i've felt in a long time.
i just want to say that.
i'm so angry.
i'm just so angry at this point.
sigh.
and it's almost 3 in the morning.
i don't know what is wrong with me.
what am i suppose to do to stop this feeling.
the feeling of feeling complete only when someone surround me.
it's so ridiculous.
i'm sorry.
i'm so angry and i'm angry to the point i don't know which spot to pin point on why am i so angry.
how do i calm down this feeling?
I know how you feel a bit. I always feel lonely, and now I feel EVEN more depressed because I can't shop, and I'm super mean to my bf. And I duno, I think its cus I'm PMSIng.
ReplyDeleteBut anyways, I think you should spend some time alone doing something you enjoy. Since you say that you only feel completely when someone is around you, you need to come to terms with being alone. You won't be alone your entire life, and you can't have people around you all the time, because everyone has a personal life. Even your future bf husband, etc, will leave you alone sometimes. Watch some sad movies and cry your heart out and then stay home and do nothing or just be lazy, and then just go back to living life ? Hope you feel better!
I can relate to you. I think the best solution is to learn to love yourself. That way, when you have only yourself, you don't feel all bad. Gosh I love hanging out with myself, home alone. LOL Do whatever you want. Eat whatever you want. Watch whatever you want. It's fun! lol Like Missy says, even in the future when you're married and stuff, there will be moments when you are alone. Use this time to overcome loneliness!
ReplyDeleteEnjoy being with yourself. Enjoy driving around, singing your heart out. Enjoy watching a movie alone and cry like an idiot. Enjoy an expensive ass meal! Since it's just you, it's not that expensive LOL. Enjoy a stroll in the park with your MP3 player (or just listen to nature, screaming kids, and barking dogs).
Whenever I'm alone and not doing anything like surfing the web or watching movie, I use the time to reflect on life, how I can better myself, how to change my attitude towards some stuff. It's a time I use to analyze everything surrounding me.
AHAHHAHAHAH I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU GUYS.
ReplyDeleteI think i was just having a bad bad day that's all.
normally, i'm okay being alone too.
but lately. ahhhh. i'll get to that later.
i hate being so weak and feeling so so so weak.
but i love you guys and i hope you guys know that <3